ESTONIAN HIKIKOMORI

You exist. You cannot help it.

You exist. No one asked you, why. All you can do is somehow justify your existence. Others expect that, every day. But how to do it...

... if you don't want to leave your room any more because there's no place for you out there. If you are like a wallpaper that no one even notices.

... if you live in a country of beautiful people where it's shameful to be ugly, but you are just plain looking, one could even say a little bit ugly, but not ugly enough to seem interesting.

... if you must get your act together but lack the willingness to fight, to break through, to work crazy hours and to burn out by having to surpass yourself on a daily basis.

... if an ancient Estonian fear lives inside you: the fear of making a fool of yourself in front of others. That fear makes you give up on things and rather not try them than to feel the shame brought on by failure.

... if you feel disappointment over not being in control of your destiny; maybe someone else is in control but it is definitely not you.

... if you don't have any plans, not even the tiniest one. Everyone has a plan but you don't.

... when there's a girl lying in the pile of snow whom you should help because otherwise she'll freeze to death or will just be done away with, but you don't want to help because that girl has nothing to do with you, you have no relationship with that girl, and you have generally taken a vacation from having a relationship with the world.

And yet you considered yourself to be somehow special. They always said you were probably end up a scientist, a writer or a statesman because you were so sharp and so clever. All the roads were indeed open for you.

Target group: 14+

Planned premiere: March 24, 2015 in the Theatre Hall of the Estonian National Library.
Author: Tiina Laanem
Director: Margo Teder
Designer: Liina Unt (Teater Endla)
Lighting designer: Triin Hook
Video: Rivo Laasi
Cast: Kristiina- Hortensia Port, Martin Kõiv ja Meelis Põdersoo
Photographer: Siim Vahur
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